Happy New Year 2012

by Nola on January 1, 2012

It is the first day of the New Year, a day pregnant with every possibility. This could be the year when all my dreams come true. Or this could be the year full of even more challenges, financial and medical and personal.  We never know for sure. The most we can do is keep a positive attitude, imagine the best outcome, and try to follow through on our goals and commitments.

I am continuing to do well with the kimo treatments. No major physical side effects, though I do have days when I am just plain tired. That’s to be expected, as blood cell counts get low. I know my body will bounce back again. (Thanks Mom and Dad for these tough pioneer genes.)

But what has been totally unexpected is my loss of interest/ability to write. I have a couple of really promising stories in process right now and neither of them is calling to me. When I do force myself to sit down and work on them, what comes out of my keyboard is about as inspired as oatmeal — without butter or raisins. We are talking very bland, sad writing. My cancer doc, Scott, says it’s a phenomenon called Chemo Brain. While I’m not at all impaired in my job as a bookkeeper, my ability to conjure tales seems to have disappeared.

The first week of  April I’ll be done with kimo. Just three months from now. My body will regain it’s strength and vitality and be even better than before.

But what about my muse?

Well, I’ve always been a writer, since the time I was four or five. I have to believe I will be a writer again. I have to believe.







{ 0 comments… add one now }

Leave a Comment

Previous post:

Next post: